Fuck.

Shit. Shitty fuckity fuck shit. o_0

I has a dilemma.

So, here's the thing. There is this guy. This really friggen hot guy who has no right to be as smart as he is. This guy who is really little more than a boy at a ripe old 19 years old. This guy, who I keep telling myself "no, you can't flirt with him. He's 19 and you would never get to date him so just... don't." Because, I can't do the whole 'fuck buddy' thing anymore. I'm too... honestly, I'm too lonely for it at this point.

Anyway, I find out today that this guy has a crush on me. Which is bad. Because I know, I know that nothing is going to come of it and I know that I am going to want something to come of it. Which is a bad thing. Because no matter what anyone says, he's 19 and used to just fucking around, and I'm not.

So what do I do? Do I just say fuck it and go ahead with this where ever it might go, even though I know that one way or another I am going to end up hurt here, just for the experience of having a relationship of some sort? Or do I veto the idea now before I get in over my head, which I know is going to take no time at all?

Fuck.