Making up my mind...

SO much to post about! I've been sitting here for a good two hours, bouncing back and forth between topics that I want to discuss, and I haven't been able to pick one. I keep starting this entry and then being like "Wait, I didn't write about this or tha. I should do that." o_0

So, here's the thing, you're gonna get a very brief bit about it all. Ready? here we go...



1. I have a job, it is going well. I guess. I mean, I'm not panicking everyday like I feared, so that's a good thing right? I worry about taking too much time off though, even though i haven't really taken any time off that they weren't told about before I was hired. I have missed two days of work that was not planned. That's not too bad, right? I've been there for two months. I hope that's not bad... o_0 I also worry that I am doing things wrong, which makes me not want to do them at all. I have always been the type who would rather be viewed as lazy than WRONG. I am fighting it though. I have been forcing myself to do EVERYTHING I AM SUPPOSED TO, even if I am not sure I am doing it 100% correctly. And asking for as much help with those things as I can stomach. It's the hardest thing about working for me. That and the whole "omg, I don't actually like my co-workers," thing. They would avoid me if they knew ANYTHING about me, and that bothers me.

2. Cassie has been driving me nuts. I'm getting burned out and I'm trying to do everything I can to prevent it and she's just making it that much harder for me. Much like my brother, she just doesn't get it, because she doesn't function like me. Also, she's not been very considerate recently. Oh, she thinks she's being considerate, but she's really not. It's all very superficial, and we know how well I deal with that sort of thing...

3. I have actually been avoiding having a politacl discussion with my favorite person to talk to because I feel like an uninformed idiot right now. See previous entry to see why. Seriously, I know nothing and just couldn't keep up. I'm so used to having all this time to just look stuff up that I feel very uninformed now that I have other things I have to do with my time.

4. I have solidified plans to be in the CT area in Nov. Unfortunately, I won;t be able to visit with anyone while I am there. I am coming up for a convention in NJ, and I will be spend the half-day before and the fully day after with my mother, which leaves no time for anything else. o_0 Sorry. I have no idea when the next time I will be able to get up there is going to be, either.

5. I am going to a Stargate Convention in Nov. It will be awesome. We have back stage passes. Four of my favorite characters will be there. Well, not the characters themselves, obviously, since they aren't REAL, but the actors who play them. Did I mention that we have back stage passes? Yeah. This is gonna RULE. ^_^

6. It took me over a month to read a 400 page book. Sad, I know. But I HAVE NO TIME these days, and had only been reading during the week, my weekends being too full to do much more at home than sleep.

7. I am still voting for McCain as of right now. I could give you a full run-down of why I am voting for him but really, it boils down to "he's conservative on things I'm conservative on and liberal on most tings I am liberal on and those things that we don;t agree on are things he wants to keep in the state realm rather than the federal." Obama has too many 'socialist' views, which really boils down to "he wants more gov, that costs more money, says he's gonna cut taxes, but doesn't tell us how he's going to pay for these new services without more taxes." Also, I really don't like his health care plan. It's going to be very hard on small businesses. Have I mentioned that I work for a company that has 36 people in the whole thing? Yeah.

8. Russia makes me nervous. Iran has always made me nervous. The idea that the two of them might be working together just down right scares me. Not critically, but enough. Anbar excites me, Japan makes my cultural life, America depresses me, and England still feels like the mother country even after nearly 300 year of independence. Now you now how I feel about the global community.

9. This week has been fully of 'theological discussion'. I have loved it, though trying to get my father to see my point is tiring to say the least. Anyone else want to know how I feel about God and the idea that things happen for a reason? Seems to be what everyone wants to know from me right now. And, can I just say, I think it is hilarious that so many people have turned to me for religious reinforcement? Me. The NOT religious one. And I have been asked our times this week to make people feel more secure in their beliefs... why? Why not ask someone who is religious? Is it because they know I am not going to think the same as them, but that I will still help them form an argument for their own beliefs? I can't think of any other reason.

10. That's it. I'm done. Told you, very brief. I am gonna go take a shower, eat something , and get ready to go to my father's company party now.